Monday, December 18, 2017

Brightest star in the skies.

2017.12.18

The saddest day for all Shawols.

Our bling bling Jonghyun, left us.
Our bling bling Jonghyun left the world.

To be honest, i still can't accept this.
I don't want to believe this.
I can't believe that he's gone.

People who really know me would know that SHINee would forever have a special place in my heart, even if i don't talk about them much anymore in social media. 
They're the one that i spent most of my money on them in the past, their concert, their merchandise.
I always wanted to see them perform as 5, again.
but now, i don't have the chance anymore.
I should have went to Shilla's beauty concert.
I should have fight for it.
My heart can't handle this right now.
Yeah, you think i'm crazy, over this. Getting this sad feeling.
Maybe you all won't understand.
Yeah, i don't know him in real life. but that doesn't mean i can't feel sad.

5 years ago? That's the last time i've seen them infront of me.
SHINee World 2. yes, that's the last time.
I never expect SHINee would end up like this.
I thought they would stay as 5 forever.
I thought they won't disband.
I thought they will grow old with Shawols.
but i'm wrong.

We lost a member, in a most heartbreaking way.
but we also gained an Angel, who is looking after us right above.
our SHINee angel. Kim Jonghyun.

 Jjong,
You may not know me,
Thank you for existing.
Thank you for your music.
Thank you for everything.
You've worked hard, Thank you.
It's time to rest peacefully now.
Although it's hard, i'm sure i will get over it.
I can't say how long i would take, but i will definitely do it.
I don't want to let you go, i want to hold on to you.
You seem happier on the other side.
If you're happy, why not?
I'll let you go when i'm ready.
For now, just let me hold on to you for a little while more.
You did well, Jjong! I'm proud of you.
I love you.
& i'll miss you. 

"A star that shined brightly on stage for 10 years, now a star of the skies."